The famous line from Avatar remains glued to the forefront of my heart and mind. "I see you." There is more to that statement than hollywood characters, the color blue on people, the planet of Pandora or Pixar animated plots. There is a spiritual dimension to those precious words. While in FWB this weekend on the phone with one my girls from ESTABLISH HER, those words haunted me. In her tears, the revelation of this fact came to me. The desire to be seen and the reality that I am, regardless of circumstances.
Living a full life, busy loving others and being loved, this little one can still feel unseen by the closest people to me. Why is that? Because innately in me is the desire and need to know I am SEEN, by the One who saw me before I was visible. I am seen by many, few, all, and of course, God. But sometimes it feels as those everyone goes blind and no one notices. We all want to be noticed, appreciated, recognized, known, and SEEN.
In hectic schedules, travel arrangements, new relationships, old friendships, demands of life, and ministry opportunities it is easy, ironically, to feel anything but seen. God whispered to me as I counseled her on the phone, " But I see you, Sarah". When I feel forsaken, taken for granted, overlooked, passed by, missed, discarded, or obscure, Jesus whispers " I see you, beloved girl". Oh I needed that fresh breath this weekend! His eyes are mentioned through the scripture... It is beautiful.
The eyes of the Lord scan the whole earth looking for someone whom He can show Himself strong. II Chron 16:9 His eye rests on me and you. Show Yourself strong O God.
The eyes of the Lord are on those who fear Him and hope in His unfailing Love. Ps 33:18 He sees me and you with eyes of unfailing loving gaze.
"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go, I will counsel you with My eye upon you." Ps. 32:8 I love His eyes being on us, counseling us in the way to walk!
He keeps me as the apple or little daughter of His eye. Ps 17:8 What an endearing close posture this to me! To be so close to Christ that in His gaze on me I see who I am in His eye. My God has fixed focus!
The eyes of the Lord are in and on every place and person. Prov 15:3
To my memory was brought Gen 16 as I continued to counsel with my dear friend and console my own heart. Hagar was mistreated by the maidservant whom she had only served and obeyed. She ran from her straight into the arms of God. Hagar has a perspective too. Her story is worth telling. She was abandoned into the wilderness under a tree by a well up against a wall. Cornered, literally. She was not seen by anyone and felt that with bitter tears. Then the Angel of the Lord visits her and asks her why she is running. Then He comforts her, with His eyes directly on her, and commands her back to Sarai. God viewed Hagar and she viewed Him. Her tears were dried and her feet were strengthened to head back for service. Hagar said, "Now I have seen the God who sees me". She named that very location, "Beer LaHai Roi", The Living One who sees me!
Oh Hagar and I have much in common at times. I long to be seen and my heart remembered this weekend that I am. I am seen by the Living One. He sees me! El Roi, the God who sees.
Take comfort in your heart, be strong and courageous for God is looking closely at us saying,
"I SEE YOU."
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
Ok so I am contemplating the effort and reward of writing or "blogging" as we call it, on a more consistent basis. Consistency is a word that needs to be defined. Life is full but so is my heart therefore I long to communicate. In this season I think consistency could be once a week or so maybe. I mean, really, who has time to jot and tittle their life away while they are living it too? I feel compelled to write though time comes and goes. Intentionality comes along with this type of writing. So here is my confession of needing to write more. Revelation 21:5 says "And the one seated on the throne said: “Look! I am making all things new!” Then He said to me, “Write it down, because these words are reliable and true.”
I am compelled to write. He has told me. He is indeed doing new things all the time, worth recording and remembering. I pray my words are reliable and true, however His are all the time. Praise! I aim to share His word through my experience with my tiny knowledge through my unfolding life stories for His glory by His spirit's power. There will be honesty, humor, word pictures, biblical truth, heart ramblings, confessions, hopes shared, and many questions left unanswered at times along the way. But "write it down" keeps running through my mind. So as Nike says, just do it. I have talked much of this and dreamed of writing (rambling) long enough now that I just want to do it not dream it. Big difference.
There is so much to share from the simple to the significant. I dont have the corner on anything nor am I the greatest aspiring writer. However through writing I can achieve a true state of catharsis in my soul. I think there are many like that in the world. Writing is a gift of expression from the Greatest Author. I long to steward that gift well. I love to free flow what is in my head, on my heart, or throughout my day with the beauty of words. I love knowing I have spoken, been heard, and hopefully understood. I enjoy painting pictures with my words through my life stories, the ones I write and even more so, the ones God trumps mine with. He is the best Author, isnt He? I love articulating what He reveals to me and in me, whether right or wrong. Writing is solace. Writing is healing. Writing even right now is telling me I should "just do it". So Stay tuned....